August 2019 – 'Nomorebeer'

Two weeks to go – the grey zone.

Two weeks to go before I quit drinking. I mean, quit for a long time, quit for “real”. (As if the 11 last days weren’t real). Last night for the first time in 12 days, I drank alcohol. At a dinner party, with friends. There were no disasters, no embarrassing events, no regrets. A slightContinue reading “Two weeks to go – the grey zone.”

Five things I learnt after 11 days alcohol free

It hadn’t happened in a long time. For the first time in years I made a daily choice to live without alcohol, and 11 days later, here is what I have learnt. Drinking takes up way more time than you would expect Planning it, doing it, regretting it, recovering from it, planning it again, resisting,Continue reading “Five things I learnt after 11 days alcohol free”

Day – 27. Feeling sad

Wow, today was a strange one. Being sober 100% of the time. SO MUCH FREE TIME. And empty space. Strangely, I am sleeping WAY MORE than when I woke up hungover. That’s not what I would have imagined, what about you? Here comes the first “hard” part of these last few “practice” sober days. IContinue reading “Day – 27. Feeling sad”

Day – 28: telling people

All this secrecy is making things complicated. Today, I told my partner I had set a quit date, in a month. He didn’t really understand because I thinks I am already 99% sober. I told him that the cravings (I didn’t mention the actual drinking) happen when I am alone, not when he is around.Continue reading “Day – 28: telling people”

Day – 29

Whassuuuup U.K. and South Africa !!! The two visitors from yesterday 🙂 I appreciate it ! I don’t know if you ever came back and are reading this, but it warms my heart to know that the void out there is peopled with you guys. Yes, you whoever you are. If you are reading this,Continue reading “Day – 29”

4 weeks until day 1

So I’ve set a date: September 4th. I’ve started this blog. I’ve signed up for the 90 day challenge on OYNB – for some reason (shame? the secrecy that so many drinkers are familiar with? feeling weird about the God stuff in AA?) I want to keep my quit relatively secret. I know that aContinue reading “4 weeks until day 1”

Who am I?

Hi, my name is Anne 🙂 OK, fine that’s my middle name, but a middle name is better than no name at all! And, oh god this feels weird and horrible, but I think I am an alcoholic. I am also sober curious. I am 33, I identify as female. I have a boyfriend andContinue reading “Who am I?”