Forced sobriety lol

Hi friends ! So here is the big news, I’m pregnant ! It’s crazy, because I stopped my contraception 4 weeks ago … I don’t see how this could have happened any faster. I am full of questions (and a bit anxious too !); I know NOTHING about bearing children, let alone raising them (yikes!),

I have secretly regressed to anxious attachment style

Hi Friends,  Happy new year to everyone! Hopefully we made it out of the worst part and things can only get better from here^^ I hope 2021 brings hope and positive change to your life, no matter what that implies for you at this moment.  I want to write a quick post about the emotional

Crushy McCrush face

Dear wordpress friends,  It’s been so long, I apologize for being absent. Life has been intense these days, adapting to a new city, a new country, starting from scratch. I’ve been pushing myself to step out of my comfort zone and having fun opening up to strangers and seeing what comes. Life is full of

2020, or the Joys of Sober Dating During a Global Pandemic

Sobriety helps you peel off the layers (thanks @Ditchingthewine for the expression), and figure out who you are. I just moved back to my home country after being abroad for 6 years, and it’s taking a bit of readapting. My brain has to re-learn a set of cultural norms, switch to another language, adopt new

Lonely Potato

Guys! Tonight I cried, for the first time in many months. I’m not talking about “shed an elegant tear during an emotional movie” crying … I’m talkin’ serious, “all hands on deck, close the curtains, no time to grab tissue, start weeping, now”, cried. I think hadn’t done that since October 2019, when I broke

Holy sh*t, I’m a (sober) Doctor!

I did it friends! I successfully defended and submitted my PhD dissertation to my university, and I am now a doctor! The two hour long defense was so intense, I had promised myself to rest beforehand but I ended up revising until the very last second. During the defense, which was on zoom (and even

Melancholia vs. hope

Hi friends,  I meant to write this post a couple of days ago, when I woke up feeling down and melancholic and lonely and in need of a bit of hope.  It’s fall here (as in most of the Northern hemisphere) and I’ve finally had a few days to settle down and feel lonely in

Day 311: 10 Months Sober.

This picture was taken 5 years ago when I had just moved to the US. My heart was broken and I was severely depressed, longing to feel free. Willing to do anything to feel a bit of relief. Ironic, as I look pretty free on that swing. Today I have freed myself from so many

Day 301: Goodbye tattoo and skinny dipping

The big 300! In 65 days, I will celebrating one full year sober. I. can’t. believe. it. In the midst of my still ongoing struggle to finish the last chapter of my dissertation, I was swept off of my feet (and out of my misery) by my friend-boyfriend-partner yesterday, who took me on the most

Day 293 : Feeling Better

Just a little update so I don’t disappear into oblivion. I feel like I have made it out of the tunnel of depression of these last 3 weeks. Like Claire at Ditching the Wine https://gettingsobernow.wordpress.com/, I halved my antidepressant medication two or three weeks ago, and am on my way to being med-free, probably sometime