Forced sobriety lol

Hi friends ! So here is the big news, I’m pregnant ! It’s crazy, because I stopped my contraception 4 weeks ago … I don’t see how this could have happened any faster. I am full of questions (and a bit anxious too !); I know NOTHING about bearing children, let alone raising them (yikes!),

Anxiety and sadness

Hi friends, Today started « badly »: I woke up sobbing, in the middle of a nightmare where the boyfriend had decided to break up with me and cheat on me with a close friend of mine. Then once I had the house to myself, I spent an hour sobbing during my morning meditation, trying

Healthy conflict

Dear friends, Yesterday the boyfriend and I were watching a film on our giant screen (we were given a projector for our house warming party, best gift ever). It was a good film, somewhat bloody and gory, but also a moving love story between two lost teens (it’s called « Bones and all » if

2020, or the Joys of Sober Dating During a Global Pandemic

Sobriety helps you peel off the layers (thanks @Ditchingthewine for the expression), and figure out who you are. I just moved back to my home country after being abroad for 6 years, and it’s taking a bit of readapting. My brain has to re-learn a set of cultural norms, switch to another language, adopt new

Day 313. The Pain of Great Goodbyes

We’ve all had ’em, but man, can they sting! All this meditation is supposed to teach you to live in the present, but more and more, as my final departure from the U.S. approaches, I find myself overcome by waves of nostalgia and sadness, which the Buddhists would say stem from clinging and an inability

Day 218: back to square one?

Don’t worry, I didn’t drink. I am just luring you in with a catchy title, because I have no soul. The square one I am talking about it relationship-related, not substance related: looks like Anne might be single again – or in need of some serious relationship counseling,.. Why am I boring you with the

Day 80: Resuming “ordinary” struggles,

Long time no write, but I am back! Wow. I am going to hit the 3 month mark soon, which is both exhilarating and anxiety inducing. Initially (in great part to survive the first few weeks) I promised myself to do 3 months AF. Now that the deadline is approaching, I am positive that I

Day 60: waking up to the love around us.

Coming up on two months. It feels good to be here. I feel solidly anchored in my body. I feel calmer. I feel proud of myself for learning how to navigate life sober. It has become normal, so I tend to forget that this is an achievement, that this took work. That I brought myself

Day 46: Sober Birthday Party!!!!

Granted, it wasn’t mine, but hey, it was a party, and I made it through 100% sober, easily! It felt fine for several reasons:  1. I had planned ahead and gone through the motions in my mind beforehand. Alcohol was simply not an option and there was no room for internal struggle or negotiation. Which

Day 26: Getting dumped (sober^^)

Well I didn’t see this coming. Ok. Maybe I didn’t WANT to see it coming. This afternoon, my boyfriend broke up with me. On the phone. He “loves me but has reached his limit with arguing, needs to stop taking his angry feelings out on me, needs to put himself first and work on himself