Hi friends, Today started « badly »: I woke up sobbing, in the middle of a nightmare where the boyfriend had decided to break up with me and cheat on me with a close friend of mine. Then once I had the house to myself, I spent an hour sobbing during my morning meditation, tryingContinue reading “Anxiety and sadness”
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Lonely Potato
Guys! Tonight I cried, for the first time in many months. I’m not talking about “shed an elegant tear during an emotional movie” crying … I’m talkin’ serious, “all hands on deck, close the curtains, no time to grab tissue, start weeping, now”, cried. I think hadn’t done that since October 2019, when I brokeContinue reading “Lonely Potato”
Day 347: The Final Push.
My friend Claire’s post about Resilience https://wordpress.com/read/blogs/169561941/posts/487 got me thinking today. As I embark on the final push toward finishing my dissertation (4 weeks left to edit a 550 page manuscript… yikes!) and reaching the 1 year sobriety mark (though that feels more like a soft swoop than a push), I pause for a momentContinue reading “Day 347: The Final Push.”
Day 311: 10 Months Sober.
This picture was taken 5 years ago when I had just moved to the US. My heart was broken and I was severely depressed, longing to feel free. Willing to do anything to feel a bit of relief. Ironic, as I look pretty free on that swing. Today I have freed myself from so manyContinue reading “Day 311: 10 Months Sober.”
Day – 28: telling people
All this secrecy is making things complicated. Today, I told my partner I had set a quit date, in a month. He didn’t really understand because I thinks I am already 99% sober. I told him that the cravings (I didn’t mention the actual drinking) happen when I am alone, not when he is around.Continue reading “Day – 28: telling people”
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