Day 80: Resuming “ordinary” struggles,

Long time no write, but I am back! Wow. I am going to hit the 3 month mark soon, which is both exhilarating and anxiety inducing. Initially (in great part to survive the first few weeks) I promised myself to do 3 months AF. Now that the deadline is approaching, I am positive that I

Day 62: Two Months, Holy sh***t!

I never would have imagined how deep the changes that have occurred during this AF journey would be. When I decided to sign up for the 3 month OYNB challenge and give up alcohol for “a bit”, I expected to experience some initial frustration and withdrawal, some emotional turmoil at the beginning, and then some

Day 60: waking up to the love around us.

Coming up on two months. It feels good to be here. I feel solidly anchored in my body. I feel calmer. I feel proud of myself for learning how to navigate life sober. It has become normal, so I tend to forget that this is an achievement, that this took work. That I brought myself

Day 50: The Irony.

WARNING: excessively melodramatic post, but I’m fine 🙂  It’s 7:30 AM here on the East Coast, and the birds are singing like our forests are on fire. It’s that time of year when if you’re good at waking up early (I’m not … shoutout to Wendy!)  you get to see the sun rise. My new

Day 46: Sober Birthday Party!!!!

Granted, it wasn’t mine, but hey, it was a party, and I made it through 100% sober, easily! It felt fine for several reasons:  1. I had planned ahead and gone through the motions in my mind beforehand. Alcohol was simply not an option and there was no room for internal struggle or negotiation. Which

Day 42: the Dust Settles…

(Thanks Jim for the post title idea. I miss you!).  It’s been a while since I posted, and although I don’t have anything revolutionary to say, here I go, with a low-commitment and lazy bullet-point summary of my 6th sober week:  I have been sober for 42 days now and I’m not thinking about alcohol

Day 26: Getting dumped (sober^^)

Well I didn’t see this coming. Ok. Maybe I didn’t WANT to see it coming. This afternoon, my boyfriend broke up with me. On the phone. He “loves me but has reached his limit with arguing, needs to stop taking his angry feelings out on me, needs to put himself first and work on himself

Day 14: Two Weeks!

Two week, y’all… hooraaaaay ! How time has flown by!! I almost want to make the “standing ovation” joke, as does my buddy Jim Simmonds in his own “two-week alcohol free” post (check out his blog if you haven’t already!) https://formerdrinker.wordpress.com But as Jim so wisely says: two weeks is “OK, not bad. It’s a

Day – 28: telling people

All this secrecy is making things complicated. Today, I told my partner I had set a quit date, in a month. He didn’t really understand because I thinks I am already 99% sober. I told him that the cravings (I didn’t mention the actual drinking) happen when I am alone, not when he is around.

4 weeks until day 1

So I’ve set a date: September 4th. I’ve started this blog. I’ve signed up for the 90 day challenge on OYNB – for some reason (shame? the secrecy that so many drinkers are familiar with? feeling weird about the God stuff in AA?) I want to keep my quit relatively secret. I know that a